aFrAiD

these 2 days
i was very lucky
because i've found the most important references for research paper
LITERATURE REVIEW

as of yesterday
i have 3 literature review (need min 5)
then just now found another 4
3 of these are the topic i'm doing
the rest are relevant to my topic
everything is so smooth
how lucky i am

good luck suddenly kept coming non-stop
i suddenly feel afraid
used to have bad luck after a series of good luck
or vice versa
not only once but a few times

i think in this year
something bad will happen to me
in odd number month

in jan (1)
i fainted while in pasar malam
that time not many people
it was the dawn of the night market

in march (3)
my right hand fingers (3rd & 4th fingers)
were hit by door
because of the thunderstorm
luckily no fractured bones
i was like a cacat person for more than 1 week
so if you ask me am i right-handed or left-handed now
i can't give you the answer
because i use my left hand for heavier things
right hand for lighter things
the 'skin' just peeled off end of last month
now there is 'bump' on my fingers
sometimes accidentally 'terkena'
with great pressure will feel pain
4th finger is crooked now
cant really straightened it unless i forced it
luckily i still can write, play piano
thank GOD

in may (5)
i've a terrible menstrual pain
that was last week

during the semester break
too much free space in my brain
(yes...assignments & stress have taken up most of the memory before that)
starting thinking & predicting
bad luck will fall upon me in may
based on the 2 previous incidents
& it really came TRUE!!!
why when i 'predict' the good one
it will never ever come true so fast

i'm superstitious sometimes
i believe in faith...
to overcome my sins
must do more good to others already
like the saying...
<好人有好报>
"buat baik dibalas baik"
"the more you give, the more you get"
(although the result will never be seen so fast)

so...
i start from now,
here,
below:

thanks to all my friends
sukkee, luwee, natalie, joeldebb, jac, cc, maggie, ting fong, sia, kasturi etc...
for your gentle & tender care
for being there for me
when i needed you all most
(sorry if i miss out any1)

thanks to my very very very close friends (like sisters)
meng & siong
for helping & agreeing to help me draw

thanks to all we know me:
my foundation year 'gang' - meichih, anna, seowying, jane, sophie
sjs friends
sriklians (especially LBKK)
sedayans
xiaomin & all halo staffs
jjfc (m) committee
jjfc (m) official members
jjfc (m) forum members
yzfc (m) committee
all on9 friends
all my teachers & lecturers
& not to forget
my superstar @ superidol, JJ
because his warm personality & songs
have changed my life & thinking
inspired, motivate
in one way & another

last but not least
to my family
ah ba, ah mi & pilipalahu :P
you're always the best

ok...ok...ok...ok...ok...
sounds like 得奖感言?
hahaha
a bit la...
without u guys
i'll be very lonely

well...
back to doing my research now


time out: 9.44pm