Showing posts with label ~s0uL tH3rApY~. Show all posts
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Saturday, June 14, 2008

c0nt3nT3d Lif3

wanna know wat i'm busy with these few weeks?

in d 1st month of my work, i was busy writing articles on herbs...
for d past 4 weeks, i was editing a video to tell people what our company does...
yes, i got to learn adobe premiere 6.0 (very old version) all by my own...
erm...i hope i can combine final cut pro & adobe premiere...
now i'm back to writing articles...

all in all, i can say that i really enjoy my current life compared to production life
cos i can plan what i wanna do on weekends (working half day on sat though) & after work hours...
one thing i realize is every day when i reached home, i'm in very light & happy mood...

ps: oh NO!!! 22 June is just a week away...
*cross finger*
*wishing upon a star*

Saturday, June 7, 2008

3xCiT3d

22 June...
26 July...

really can't wait for those 2 days to come...
y?

26 july is my CONVOCATION!!!
a time when i'll be officially gradute from my degree course ;P
(ps: if u r free on this day, please come k...contact me for more info)

22 June...
for those who dunno, i'll keep it as a secret 1st...hahaha...
after this day only i'll talk more about it lol...

Sunday, May 18, 2008

siL3Nc3, hOp3

a minute of silence to the victims in Myanmar & Sichuan, China

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爱与希望
主唱/林俊杰
词/王雅君 曲/林俊杰


大地被摇晃著
天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了
下一秒瓦解了 泪堆积成了河

但明天是好的
我们要坚定著
爱~让我们不放弃活著
还要继续和大自然拔河

当爱与希望 投射炙热的太阳
昨日泪光 会随时间都蒸发
别轻易放弃 明天要许更多愿望
装满了勇气 就更有力量

当爱与希望 倒映暖暖的月亮
再回头望 又是筑好的家乡
我知道未来还有好多路要闯
我打开了窗 看见了晴朗

Saturday, May 10, 2008

a sHoRt uPdAt3

just a short little update on my life,
while waiting for Under the Canopy of Love <天幕下的恋人> drama to load (today's connection very slow la)...
been attracted to Bosco Wong, Raymond Lam, Kevin Cheng, Ron Ng, Samuel Chan, Niki Chow, Natalie Tong & Linda Chung lately...love their acting...& dramas...& of cos their leng zai leng lui look...hehe

started working last friday...
so far so good...
d best thing is of cos "no need to go through massive jam"...

now waiting for a letter from university...
damn desperate to know the actual date for my convo asap...
y? because my parents will b going to genting on july 12!
& heard tat tis year's convo will b held in july...
my father is more desperate n happy than me la...
always ask when is convo...n plan to take pics of me wearing sei fong mou...
my mom even said wanna buy flowers for me...
but i replied...i dun 1 flower...i want teddy bear/puppy wearing convo gown 1...hehe...at least can keep d toy 4eva mah...

ciao...continue to watch Under the Canopy of Love <天幕下的恋人> now

Saturday, April 26, 2008

sW33t, yUmMy, d3LiCiOuS

kinda attracted to bodyshop & skinfood products lately...
dunno why...

wondering what's 'eau de toilette' (toilette=toilet?)
what's d difference compared to body mist / perfume?
shud i buy body mist or eau de toilette or perfume?
which 1 more worthy?
hhmmmm...
wanna try bodyshop body lotion oso...
aqua lily?
japanese cherry blossom?
satsuma?
white musk blush?
sounds sweet...
my sis using 'passion fruit shower gel' now...
love d smell but quite expensive la...
very 'mm say tak' to buy it la
just wondering will they have "buy 3rd item at 50% discount" in future?

been using skinfood skincare almost 1 month already...
since i've finished up my whole tube of cleanser & whole bottle of 'bio-gold pearl cream with chinese herbs' (really make my skin better & lesser pimples but couldn't find it in m'sia - my aunt bought it in beijing)...
i was thinking, 'why not i give skinfood skincare product a try? it's time to use my hard-earned money (yes...after sacrifying a lot of my leisure & sleep time) from my freelance job now"
yummy...delicious...
using seaweed cleanser...
a bit 'ma fan' cos need to rinse off with tepid water...
wondering if don't have warm water supply then................
love peach sake pore serum's smell d best...
make my t-zone n 'near-the-nose-area' less oily
pore getting less visible...
love the packaging also..
it's so attractive...
well, at least to me...

*cross finger*
after using the products for few months, i will have pimple-free smooth clean clear soft skin...
well, at least getting better after using d whole bottle :)

Friday, April 25, 2008

TrAfFiC jAm dAy!!!

bored...
sleepy...
tired...
frustrated...
annoyed...
because of
TRAFFIC JAM!!!
INCONSIDERATE DRIVERS BLOCKING ENTRANCE & EXIT & STOPPING AT YELLOW BOX!!!

3 cars broke down along the jammed road...
2 lorries blocking 2/3 lane due to break down / accident...

usual 1/2 hour thru-&-forth journey took 1 hr 15 mins to complete...

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

dr3aMiNg


In music, movies, drama, books
i indulged
to find the meaning of life
to build my own kingdom of nostalgia
under my home sweet home...



Monday, February 11, 2008

hApPy cHiN3s3 n3w y3Ar

These are few of my new clothes for cny :)








Went shopping spree all over Klang Valley since December 2007 (yes, got so many holidays mah...somemore it's year end sales) - 1 Utama, Sunway Pyramid, South City Plaza, Jusco Cheras Selatan, Jusco Taman Equine, Jusco Taman Maluri, Mid Valley, Cheras Leisure Mall, IOI Mall. Ended up buying 5 tops & 2 pants. Found out that Body Gloves has been offering 50% storewide discount since Dec 2007.

This year's reunion dinner was quite special. We ate Kenny Rogers, western food rather than chinese food. What to do, all chinese restaurants were closed except those expensive type which doesn't suit for a 4 person meal.


As usual, on the 1st day of cny, i went to my uncle's house in Puchong for the usual cny vegetarian reunion dinner. After lunch, went to my mother's brother's house for 拜年. Actually, i planned to go vegetarian for whole day but all chinese restaurants were closed. So had Marry Brown's chicken burger for dinner.


On the 2nd day, me & my parents & sister went to Jenjarom temple. I bought along the camera but running out of battery. Forgot charge the battery before that. Quite a last minute plan to bring along my camera. After that, went to Bukit Tinggi Jusco. Most of the shops there are expensive brand. Wanted to shop for some clothes but ended up didn't buy any cos of the price. But at least i bought a novel & a dvd (The Warlords). Came home, have half an hour nap & went out for dinner at Tuck Chan Restaurant near my house. The price already increased. What to do, it's cny mah. Even the normal chinese coffeeshops also increase the price. Now chicken rice costs RM4 compared to RM3.50.


Suddenly feel the urge to sing k. But then the price is so expensive. It's like everything has become more expensive than before. It's a "no money no talk" world. Haiz...this "slogan" has become stronger since i started my internship & working. So, in order to survive, i need to think of my future financial state & whether the time & effort i contribute worth the pay i'm receiving.

Sunday, September 2, 2007

tVb dRAmA s3ri3S ~ tH3 bRiNk oF LAw


Recently, i've been watching THE BRINK OF LAW <突围行动>...
just completed watching the last episode this morning...
below are the details of the drama...

Title: 突圍行動
English title: The Brink of Law
Also known as: Breakthrough Action
Episodes: 25
Opening theme song: 突圍 (Break Through) Ron Ng & Steven Ma
Ending theme song: 分手 (Breakup) by Bernice Liu
Casts: Steven Ma, Ron Ng, Bernice Liu, Shirley Yeung, Kate Tsui, Michelle Yim, Kenneth Ma...

Synopsis: (taken from http://tvb.windy-goddess.net/?page_id=239)
The court prosecutes Tong Chi Ko (Steven Ma Chun Wai) for slander. After reforming his life, he joins a fashion corporation as a legal advisor. He becomes good friends with Tung Yat Jun (Ron Ng Cheuk Hei), the nephew of corporation head Tung Jin Lung (Ngok Wah). Ko encounters his first love, Tsui Wing (Bernice Liu Bik Yi), but discovers that her relationship with Lung is atypical. Lung’s wife, Kam Chi (Michelle Mai Suet), accidentally learns Jun’s life-changing secret and swears to set him into a deathtrap!This time, Ko suspects that the fashion company isn’t simply engaged within the bounds of its business, but is furthermore involved with an international off-track betting activity. However, the truth of the matter causes people to be confused. Actually, who is the real person behind the scenes pulling strings?


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full of conflict...
betrayal...
revenge...
greedyness...
merciless...
ambitious...
love...

the story revolves around 1 family & friends & business...
almost all the characters have dark secrets...
secrets that when revealed will destroy their life & ambition...
therefore, in order to protect their secret from leaking out,
they are willing to sacrifice everything, including family relationships...
& the conflict & tension started as early as in the 1st episode...

when i was watching the first few episodes,
many thoughts came into my mind...
sometimes i really don't understand...
how could a human be so merciless???
will destroying an innocence life help to protect their secrets???
why one must use trick to achieve one's ambition but at the same time harm others' career???
why a human need to break the law to protect themselves???
why they didn't feel even a slight regret over their actions???
is surrendering themselves even more difficult than continue acting against the law???
didn't they thought of the consequences before they take any illegal actions???

is the world a save place to live?
what are shown in dramas & films reflect the society...
maybe not that dramatic though...
but it is somehow true to a certain extent...
& this drama taught us to think before we act...
& don't even think of touching the illegals, both in terms of the law & the society's ethical values (reminded me of media law & ethics)...
because sooner & later...
the secret will be leaked out...
& one will receive punishments parallel to the things they have done...

humans are born with a good heart...
don't ever let our evil heart overcome & conquer our kind heart...

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

r3StL3sS

dunno why...
i suddenly feel bored...
not that i have nothing to do...
i just feel bored & lazy to do my assignments...

finally...
i've some understanding on how to use spss...
but cannot use the programme in uni lab because cannot save the file...
yes...cannot save into desktop, my documents, pendrive...
no use typing all the data but cannot SAVE!!!
only one of the pc manage to save the file...
jac is so lucky...
weird la...

everything is going to end in 2 weeks time...
let me count the exact days...
13 days more...
i not sure whether i should feel relieve or sad...
relieve because i don't have to go throught assignments & exams anymore...
actually assignments are still ok...
but not exam...stress & tension...
sad because i'll gonna miss school life...
& step into the working world forever...
unless i pursue Master but that time it would not be as fun as now...
sometimes, i really hope all these won't end so soon...
but what can i do?
life still goes on...
time still moves on...
i don't have power to stop time from forwarding...
unless i have "Click" remote control...
haha...keep dreaming...

so, what will i be in the next 5 years?
i don't know...
i really don't know...
haven't really thought of it...
i only wish that i could find a job i really love...
hopefully one where i could travel & work at the same time ;P

talking about travel...
below are some of the photos i took during Kuala Selangor trip...
enjoy...






Friday, July 20, 2007

LAsT r3s0rT...LAsT chALL3nG3

worried...
frustrated...
STRESS is BACK!!!

20 days more before research presentation...
& yet i've not completed distributing the questionnaires...
still have 20++ questionnaires not yet return to my hand...
still have 10++ blank questionnaires with me...
there are more than 10 invalid data...

oh NO!!!
i'm really running out of time...
haven't even download spss...
but the main frustration is i doesn't really know how to use it...
attended spss seminar but still can't really remember all the contents...

i really need your help...
if you've received my email with questionnaire attached to it,
pls do save my day by filling it & email back to me...
your participation & cooperation are greatly needed...
your contribution will be highly appreciated...
a trillion of thanks!!!

thanks to all my friends who helped me to distribute the questionnaires...
yinwei, sukkee, chinlay, jaclyn, meichih, carmein, meng choo...
& my beloved sister...
did i missed anyone?
i hope none...
apologize if i had :(

today,
i've edited 3 mintues plus of 6-8 minutes corporate video...
but there are still many footages & ideas have not edited...
i think it will be more than 8 minutes if i didn't cut out some parts...
but there are so many nice footages...
need to make rationale decision here...
how i hope i could chunk in all the footages...
but this is impossible...

too long, audiences will be tired of it...
too short, there will be not enough information to capture audiences' heart...
& influence them to visit Kuala Selangor...

just imagine,
producing 6-8 minutes video from 3 hours tape of footages...
it's really not that easy...
as the footages are all scenery footages...
no dialogue...
no interview...
no archive footages...

the best footage is of course the sunset...
we've capture 30 minutes of sunset...
after increasing the speed,
the movement of the clouds and the light are so beautiful!!!
i could only say this trip is a worthwhile trip...
although we didn't manage to capture any fireflies footage...

just checked the 2nd draft of final exam timetable...
Introduction to English Literature is on the 3rd day of the final exam period, 13 August (Monday)...
this is the only paper which has final exam...

being in the last semester of last year of degree really makes me worned out...
hope all these will end soon...
TIME is my greatest challenge...
my greatest enemy...
so must cherish every second i have now...

let me count how many assignments are still in progress:
1. Intro to English Literature 1000 words essay
2. Frankenstein novel (still half way through)
3. 6-8 minutes corporate video - editing
4. distribute questionnaire (after that, use spss to calculate the data)
5. prepare final report and presentation for the survey findings

another frustration...
find job for internship...
but i do not want to care about this now...
as i have too many things on my mind already...
do not want to add more burden on my shoulder first...
so after final exam only take this into account...

Thursday, June 28, 2007

3xCit3D

there are 2 reasons why i'm "so" excited now:

1. JJ new album Westside <西界> will be released tomorrow!!! M'sian fans, go to Sg Wang at 7.30pm tomorrow to support the presale k...finally, can listen to the songs!!!

2. Re-editing my script, found some additional info...at 1st, i doesn't have much confidence on this production...but don't know why, suddenly i feels excited to shoot this project...& my mind is playing the beautiful scenes of Kuala Selangor as i re-edit my script...feels indulged in it...

i'll upload the photos i took on tue when we went to Kuala Selangor asap...

so now, back to work...content analysis & script & production preparation & literature...

good night...

Monday, June 4, 2007

i'M a biRd wiTh0uT a wiNg, a s0nG wiTh0uT a s0uL???

"How can the bird that is born of joy,
Sit in a cage and sing,
How can a child when fears annoy,
But droop his tender wing,
And forget his youthful spring." - The School-Boy, William Blake

Sometimes,
i feel like living in my parents' dreams,
Sometimes,
i feel like living in a cage
where there's no escape route to freedom,
trapped,
being ripped off of youth,
What else can i say,
What else can i do,
as i'm a Bird without a wing,
a Song without a soul.

Could i succeed without parents' dream?
Could i survive without the cage?
Could i fly without a wing?
Could i be melodious & sentimental without a soul?


ps:
Killer <杀手> will show his power on 6 June 2007 (Thurday) on MyFm
please be AWARE
please be ALERT
24 HOURS a day
1440 MINUTES a day
86400 SECONDS a day

COUNTDOWN: 2 DAYS

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

trAPp3D

i feel trapped
sometimes it's irresistable
sometimes it's unavoidable
i can't freely express what i want
can't freely express what i desire to do
trapped within a "fantasy" world of others

Shakespeare compared the world with the prison
well, i think it's quite true
see all those terrible, horrible events happening around us
it's never ending
it's everlasting
we are trapped in a world of devils

every day
when we flip through the newspaper
news on crime, murder, rape are everywhere around the world
news on disasters, diseases are increasing
news on blasting, bombing is getting more ridiculous
spoiling my mood if i read on
but that's the truth
we need to accept it
cannot ignore, deny it
cannot escape from it
because it's our world
our heaven
our lost world

there's not a save place for us anymore
there's no haven
even if <第二天堂> do exist
it's full of evil-doing
full of devils
full of envy
full of jealousy
full of selfishness
full of bloody battles
battling physically, emotionally, psychologically
between one another
to conquer the heaven
that no longer exists

"You think it's perfect
everything's so fine
wait till you look through your spiritual eyes...
You think it's nice
but please open your eyes
this place is but a beautiful sty...
You want it
I want it
everything's a want
we loose it then we say it's for fun...
You think it's funny
what I'm saying is corny
it's a warning
heed it or ignore it."
...excerpt (rap) from 第二天堂 Haven by JJ Lin...


trapped
reminds me of JJ <精灵> demo ~ "Trapped"

"I'm still trapped within the beat of the night
A little comfort from the candlelight
Your picture's on the wall, so is mine
Brushstrokes faded...
Think I said before I'll meet all your needs
All that is to be before it was gone
Think we might have been great,
but I'm afraid I think too late...

But I just can't believe
whatever took me so long
I wanna set me free,
never thought it's so hard
Girl won't you ever see,
all I am is afraid...

It's someone else's heart beating beside you everyday
I said I'll play my part I pushed you far away instead
Can never say how much i miss you,
still love you baby...
Someone else is saying he loves u in everyway
What can I do my love for you is over anyway
I let you go but I'm still trapped
Deep within... "

beautiful lyrics...touching melody


ps: inspired after reading jensonjj91's post <~非常值得我们思考的问题~>
& yes...JJ songs did inspire me too...


time out: 10.40pm

Monday, May 28, 2007

cr3AtiVitY

...if i have half of their creativity
i'll be satisfied...

wondering
why some people could write beautiful poetry
why some people could compose melodious symphony
why some people could write touching song lyrics
why some poeple could compose stunning silver screen
wondering beyond thoughts

wondering
how do poets get the metaphor
how do musicians get the tune
how do lyricists get the feelings
how do filmmakers get the composition
wondering beyond thoughts

if i have half of their creativity
i'll be satisfied

Thursday, May 24, 2007

aFrAiD

these 2 days
i was very lucky
because i've found the most important references for research paper
LITERATURE REVIEW

as of yesterday
i have 3 literature review (need min 5)
then just now found another 4
3 of these are the topic i'm doing
the rest are relevant to my topic
everything is so smooth
how lucky i am

good luck suddenly kept coming non-stop
i suddenly feel afraid
used to have bad luck after a series of good luck
or vice versa
not only once but a few times

i think in this year
something bad will happen to me
in odd number month

in jan (1)
i fainted while in pasar malam
that time not many people
it was the dawn of the night market

in march (3)
my right hand fingers (3rd & 4th fingers)
were hit by door
because of the thunderstorm
luckily no fractured bones
i was like a cacat person for more than 1 week
so if you ask me am i right-handed or left-handed now
i can't give you the answer
because i use my left hand for heavier things
right hand for lighter things
the 'skin' just peeled off end of last month
now there is 'bump' on my fingers
sometimes accidentally 'terkena'
with great pressure will feel pain
4th finger is crooked now
cant really straightened it unless i forced it
luckily i still can write, play piano
thank GOD

in may (5)
i've a terrible menstrual pain
that was last week

during the semester break
too much free space in my brain
(yes...assignments & stress have taken up most of the memory before that)
starting thinking & predicting
bad luck will fall upon me in may
based on the 2 previous incidents
& it really came TRUE!!!
why when i 'predict' the good one
it will never ever come true so fast

i'm superstitious sometimes
i believe in faith...
to overcome my sins
must do more good to others already
like the saying...
<好人有好报>
"buat baik dibalas baik"
"the more you give, the more you get"
(although the result will never be seen so fast)

so...
i start from now,
here,
below:

thanks to all my friends
sukkee, luwee, natalie, joeldebb, jac, cc, maggie, ting fong, sia, kasturi etc...
for your gentle & tender care
for being there for me
when i needed you all most
(sorry if i miss out any1)

thanks to my very very very close friends (like sisters)
meng & siong
for helping & agreeing to help me draw

thanks to all we know me:
my foundation year 'gang' - meichih, anna, seowying, jane, sophie
sjs friends
sriklians (especially LBKK)
sedayans
xiaomin & all halo staffs
jjfc (m) committee
jjfc (m) official members
jjfc (m) forum members
yzfc (m) committee
all on9 friends
all my teachers & lecturers
& not to forget
my superstar @ superidol, JJ
because his warm personality & songs
have changed my life & thinking
inspired, motivate
in one way & another

last but not least
to my family
ah ba, ah mi & pilipalahu :P
you're always the best

ok...ok...ok...ok...ok...
sounds like 得奖感言?
hahaha
a bit la...
without u guys
i'll be very lonely

well...
back to doing my research now


time out: 9.44pm

Monday, May 21, 2007

'bR33zY' sUmM3r dAy

it's very hot now
makes me feel sleepy (I love sleeping)
destroy my mood
to do initial research
for screen production & research paper

found a really useful website this morning
www.marketresearch.com
you can find everything in any field
but guess WHAT?!!!
need to register to view more info on the research report
for full research report need to buy
ok, so i register cos it's free of charge
but then need to fill in my address & telephone number
compulsory field!!!
gave up
haiz ^_^"'
i'm very sensitive when website ask for my address & telephone number
no sense of SECURITY
how I know what they'll do with the info
well
i did fill in my address & telephone number before
but that's because I trust the websites: myfm, cinemaonline, gsc & thestar
need my particulars to mail to me my prizes if I win the contest
but so far, no luck :-(
well...I think I think too much already
but I don't care
still 'stick' to my original stand

"London bridge is falling down
falling down
falling down"
you might be thinking why I suddenly 'sing' this song
so childish ^_^"'
this is not CHILDISH
this is CREATIVE
taking a part of 'old' song
& transforming it into a brand new song
is called creativity
blur???
hahaha XP
this is one of the songs in SHE Play album
titled "London bridge is falling down' <伦敦大桥垮下来>
well...
David Tao is famous for this 'style'
remember <忘不了> & <月亮代表谁的心>?
Leehom's <在那遥远的地方> where Leehom blends chinese traditional ethnic music with hiphop & R&B
in JJ Lin's <明天>, there's a small part 'featuring' an excerpt from a popular classical music...i forgot the title of the song...quite famous

ok...
if you're not JM
(for those who don't know, JM stands for 'jie mi' 杰迷)
you might start thinking that I've become crazy
why my blog 'full' of JJ, JJ, JJ.....non-stop
the main reason is I'm a superfan of him (JJ is my No.1 superstar @ superidol)
& for now i'm getting into the MOOD
preparing to welcome his 5th album
which will be released in end of june (yes!!! finally...the last time I saw him was on 17/12/2006)
furthermore
jjfc forum has been closed for updating (for more than 2 weeks already...bored)
so no place to express
that's why I express here ;P

well...
it's time to go to bed
as mentioned I love to sleep
+ this super hot weather (& blood-thirsty mosquitoes are sucking my blood non-stop, so better offline now)
makes me more tired & sleepy


time out: 9.52pm

Friday, May 11, 2007

m3tAm0rPh0siS

Listening to <淋雨中> In The Rain
realizing it's very hot now
the passed few months thunderstorm hit the earth almost everyday
but now the weather begins to change again
clear blue sky could be seen during the day
burning into our skin, unescapable
it's so unpredictable
since the tsunami
the world is changing
evolving into the worst nightmare of human history

Listening to <捉迷藏> Hide & Seek
memory rewind to childhood
when we played 'galah panjang', bottle caps, 'batu seremban' before & after class
it was so stress-free back then
no worries for money, future, love & everything happening around us
sweet memories
but could no longer be achieved
it's said that children are the most innocent people in the world
it's true back then
but it has changed now

Listening to <旋律> Melodi
the sweet soft melodious sound flows in the background
music is my life
without it i couldn't achieved what i've achieved today
determination, patience, discipline, hard work
learning piano had imparted in me these values
Mozart music triggers the brain of children
helping the development of both left brain & right brain
training it into perfection
producing a new line of scholars

Listening to <对调>
how i wish i could exchange unhappiness, worries, stress
with happiness, worries-free, stress-free life
but one could not escape from this torture
it's destinied, unescapable
everyone must experience ups & downs
before achieving success in life
cherishing every moment we have
in reaching for our dream life
minimizing regret in later years